Well it is almost that time in my life to move again. Alex’s speech/hearing issue is under control now and while he still has a way to go in Speech therapy he is doing awesome!! Jayden’s eye will be taken care of very soon, his appointment is next week (the 24th) and from there we will find out if he actually needs surgery or if glasses will correct his issues.
I have talked to my managers at work (and yes i almost made them cry when i told them i was leaving) and put in for my transfer to a Distribution Center. I have actually called them and spoken to them about the transfer (they were waiting for the paperwork to go through which just went today) and was told that yes they will have a position for me and they will hold it til i get there. Although i did have to chuckle while talking to them because they told me that the position was a very physical position and asked if i could handle it…My response was It can’t be any worse than down stacking the pallets that they stack AND throwing the freight…they just said ok good point lol. Oh yeah and did i mention i will more than double my salary with this transfer?!?!?!
Why am i moving?? Well Mom really needs help financially and i have sat down and figured out the budget with what i make now and it is manageable (and even better when i transfer to my new position!!). My brother who is currently paying her mortgage and power bill does not want to move back into the house for his own reasons, so i am stepping up. Mom raised us and now she needs help so while we have had a rocky past she is still my mom and i love her dearly. I do have to say we have come a long way in the past year with our relationship and i have no doubts in my mind that everything will work out great :-)
I do have to say that the past 2 years now (i think it has been that long now lol) have been a roller coaster ride, but i am happy with where i am, what i have become and where i am going!!
So many feelings running through me right now. Relief, happiness, Anger, and Scared. I am officially all over the charts lol.
Alex Finally had his ENT appointment yesterday!! With that came a diagnosis and that brings both relief and happiness. The first thing they did was give him a hearing test (why no one ever did this before i will never understand). The poor boy failed parts of it miserably. They stuck headphones in his ears that make a long beeping sound to see how well your ear drums move to the sound. It is suppose to make a mountain like line well Alex’s stayed flatlined, meaning his ear drums don’t move at all. Come to find out he has so much ear wax built up behind his eardrums that they are surprised his eardrums haven’t burst yet!! Which causes hearing loss and hence his speech. Yes the boy speaks just like he hears, the Dr said it was like being under water and hearing people talk to you. Now i feel so bad for my son!!
So now i am so pissed at past Dr’s for blaming this all on either Autism or Allergies!! If they had done a simple hearing test, his ears may not be as bad as they are today!! I just want to strangle someone!!
Now i know having tubes put in your ears and having your adenoids taken out are very simple procedures that are done on a regular basis, but i am still scared to death for next Wednesday!! First of all they have to put an IV in my son (not looking forward to that fight) and he will be knocked out (thats the part that is scary besides the surgery itself). I know it doesn’t take long but i am telling you that WILL be the longest 30-45 minutes of my life!!!
I have a Love/Hate relationship with grocery shopping day!! Love it for the obvious reason…food :-) Hate it cause my boys think they can eat nonstop all day long!!! GRRRRR
Well it really has been a surprising few weeks. I have heard from Andy an awful lot. He has been calling and checking on the boys and is actually going shopping for them this weekend and sending down stuff that they need. I am just in a state of shock over it all, it has taken him a year to do this (pretty sad).
Part of our conversation last night that about knocked me out of my chair:
10/6/2010 10:25:33 PM Andy
going this weekend to get them some stuff
10/6/2010 10:25:49 PM Andy
text me on Sat and tell me what they need the most
10/6/2010 10:25:53 PM Shery
cool, thanks i really appreciate that
10/6/2010 10:25:55 PM Andy
so I can pick it up
10/6/2010 10:26:01 PM Shery
kk
10/6/2010 10:26:08 PM Andy
they need cloths
10/6/2010 10:26:39 PM Andy
I am still there Dad. May not be there, and things may not be the same between us, but they are still my children
10/6/2010 10:26:58 PM Andy
I don’t want to suffer because I am not there
10/6/2010 10:27:10 PM Andy
not more than they already are by my absence
10/6/2010 10:27:56 PM Shery
i know that, was just my way of saying thanks :)
10/6/201010:28:04 PM
Andy
ok
#2 Death Is Nothing At All
Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped into the next room.
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone,
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was,
Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It it the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near,
Just around the corner.
All is well.
Ever have that feeling where you just want to be a kid again? To scream and throw tantrums and not get into trouble, taking naps and not feeling guilty about it or to just have the comfort of your parents when you are in a miserable mood. To not have to make decisions when you don’t want to and then wonder if it was the right decision that you made.
When we are kids we can not wait to grow up and live our own lives. Now that i am here and have kids of my own. I just wish for 1 day i could go back and be a kid once more.
Just the everyday stuff of what i call my life
